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Claire Bennet
19 July 2008 @ 09:22 pm
It hurts even though it heals.
 
 
Claire Bennet
23 June 2008 @ 01:23 pm
I'm scared to really know him.
 
 
Claire Bennet
22 June 2008 @ 11:22 am
I don't know who to mourn.
 
 
Claire Bennet
95. A genie has granted you TEN wishes. What do you wish for?


1. That my Dad was here.
2. That Nathan was okay.
3. That my family was all together (both families).
4. That Zack was around.
5. That West could handle it all.
6. That I wasn't a freak.
7. That I could help people and keep my family safe at the same time.
8. That the world wasn't so messed up.
9. That I had a million dollars.
10. That I could punch Elle.

Muse | Claire Bennet
Fandom | Heroes
 
 
Claire Bennet
I pretend and pray it all away
searching for a place to hide
But I don't need to pretend memories to fade
I just wanna feel something real inside
-The Stone - Ashes Divide


When she heard the news on the TV she felt something break inside her. They showed the footage of the press conference. All the camera's were fixed on Nathan and no one got sight of his shooter but Claire figured it was some one from the company. She figured it was someone she met. She was afraid it was the man she called dad. She was afraid that the man she called dad killed her father. It was all curling around in her gut like wildfire. Like this slug that was heavy and hard there in her stomach.

She watched the bullet enter her father's body. She watched him crumble and she watched Peter scream and her uncle held on to her father's body like he would will the man's survival. She prayed that someone used Peter's blood to help her father she even considered calling the morgue where his body was suppose to be taken to give them her blood. She wanted to save him. She suddenly had the urge to know him. She'd only wanted to know him once before and he had shot that dream to hell.

But Claire didn't want to see him dead anymore than she wanted to remember the way her dad looked with a bullet in his eye, his glasses with a hole in them. She just wanted to find something more. Some meaning in the world after that. They took away her dad, they killed her father. And there was nothing she could do about it.

Muse Claire Bennet
Fandom | Heroes
Word Count | 270
 
 
 
Claire Bennet
09 March 2008 @ 02:59 pm
073. TEN songs on your shuffle right now.


1. The Blower's Daughter - Damien Rice
2. She's my Ride Home - Blue October
3. When Your Gone - Avril Lavigne
4. Undiscovered - Ashlee Simpson
5. All I ever Wanted - Brian Melo
6. Yellow - Coldplay
7. Fame < Infamy - Fall Out Boy
8. Cupid's Chokehold - Gym Class Heroes
9. With Love - Hilliary Duff
10. No Bravery - James Blunt

Muse | Claire Bennet
Fandom | Heroes
 
 
Claire Bennet
28 January 2008 @ 03:45 pm
Dad

Father

Jackass

Nathan,

So I hear you're all laid up in a coma or something because you pissed off the company. You should know that pissing off the company is a stupid thing to do. Sure glad I didn't get my brains from you DAD. So I hope your surrounded by that nearly ex-wife of yours and those two little brothers of mine (ya know I wonder if they'll have powers too, better keep a watch daddy-o). Though as traumatic experiences go I think that they're getting off easy; at least they haven't been cut open while awake just to see how much of them would grow back. Trust me that sucks.

I'm pretty sure Karma is just kicking your ass right now. It's not that surprising mr. ex-congressman or whatever it was you were. I don't keep that much track; a friend just told me about your situation. Sucks for you pops.

Have a nice coma,
Claire aka: the illegitimate spawn you abandoned
 
 
Claire Bennet
16 January 2008 @ 10:39 am
067. TEN things you've never done before.

1. Fallen in love. I've had boyfriends and maybe I could have loved West if he hadn't decided to turn his back on everything that we are but I just ... can't. Love gets you in trouble.

2. Had a real conversation with my biological father. But he's gone now and I'll never get the chance. It's probably just as well. I think that maybe I wouldn't have been able to get past my anger.

3. Had sex.

4. Taken the chance to really get to know my mother. She's shown to me now that she's not all that meets the eye.

5. Forgiven my dad.

4. Forgiven Nathan.

5. Forgiven Peter for making me promise to kill him that night in Kirby Plaza. We're special and we all have a responsibility but I'm just a kid.

6. Had a real conversation with Lyle that didn't end in snark and sibling assery.

7. Confronted Sylar - not truly.

8. Been totally myself - 100% Claire. It's just not possible with the way the world is and the fear that invades me all the time. I was going to be, I was going to go out there and tell the world what I could do to protect my family. I can't now. Now I have to protect my family in a different way.

9. Truly mourned the loss of either of my fathers. I can't let go. I won't.

10. Found someone I could trust completely. I thought it might have been West or even Zach (I miss Zach terribly) but there's no one. My family can't understand as much as they try and Peter ... he's ... I don't even know anymore.


069. TEN things that scare you.

1. Sylar.
2. Getting to know Nathan. Which is a mute point now that he's gone.
3. Never seeing Peter again.
4. Never finding someone who made me feel the way West did. Like it could be so much more - forever.
5. Always having to hide.
6. Loosing Mom and Lyle.
7. Being a freak.
8. Being myself.
9. Living forever.
10. Cheerleaders.

Muse | Claire Bennet
Fandom | Heroes
 
 
Claire Bennet
Claire is alone and she likes it that way. She likes being the person who has no name, she slips in and out of shelters and donates her special blood to heal anyone whose sick. So many people are gone and so many people look at her with awe in their eyes when she cuts her arm and theirs to mix their blood when there's no syringes. She just moves from place to place and can't stop because then she has to think. When she thinks she feels so sad and tired. She thinks about her father and her mother and all the people who want her to be safe.

She knew about Eden but she didn't want to go there. She wanted to be alone forever but she knew she'd end up with her parents. Back to California. She's close and she feels the pull to feel something more than the emptiness that's invaded her soul - the guilt.

She knew Adam was the head-guy in Eden and it made her sick to think about him. It made her so sick to think that someone like her was the cause of all this. She'd heard all the accounts from second hand sources just after the virus hit and she had to suss out the real story. It was Adam. Adam did this to the world and she didn't know how to deal with the fact that someone like her did this. Someone with her powers who is going to live forever and make people trust him and heal them. She was so tired and she blamed herself in a way that probably made no sense.

All she could do was think about her parents and head towards Northern California. She needed to see her parents even if it was stupid to get close to people in this new world.
 
 
Claire Bennet
31 December 2007 @ 12:29 pm
Anon. Weblog: FreakGirl was asked "Who makes you the angriest?"



I'm so angry all the time. I feel like there is anger in every inch of my skin sometimes. I can't control it. Everytime I learn something new about my father and his past I feel like I hate him just a little bit and it builds and builds until I can't breathe anymore. Then he'd look at me and explain things to me and I'd see how much he loves me and how much he's done for me and I can't be angry anymore.

I get angry at my real father because he doesn't have the strength to be there for me and now he's dead and I can't breathe because I never really knew him. I never knew him and that seems wrong somehow. I love my parents, they have been there for me more than anyone else in the world but my biological parents ... I think about them a lot. I think about Nathan and Meredith. I think about how he didn't know I was alive and how she probably would have given me up anyway. I think about the company taking me and what my life would be like if they hadn't.

Other people make me angry. Peter just because he wanted me to kill him and now he's gone. He's the person who always understood me and as short of a time as I got to see him I miss him. He's my uncle and I want to know him. I want him to be there for me when Nathan can't.

West left because he needed to hide. After all the talk of not hiding he ran away like a coward.

Elle was there when my dad died. She was there and she tried to kill me.

Bob killed my father and probably Nathan too. I saw the news where it showed the conference he attempted to make. I saw what he was saying - and I am proud of him. He was going to go public and someone killed him for it.

In the end there are so many more people who make me angry. Jackie did and now she's dead. Sylar for obvious reasons. I hate him so much.

But really I make myself angry. I feel like such a child most of the time. Childish reactions and actions. I just want to be better. I want to make a difference in the world.

Who makes you angry?

-FreakGirl

Muse | Claire Bennet
Fandom | Heroes
Word Count | 407